To Never Be Continued

All I have left are the perfumes, cards and an oversized stuff teddy bear. You left me with conversations about our future, goals and how you never met a woman like me in a long time. We spent time creating dates that were not like the usual. Pizza making and paint night dates is what we looked forward to. We promised to chronicle every date by taking selfies and which quickly filled our camera roll.

I was so sure this time around. We were in sync. We had that scorpio and cancer connection. Shared the same values on family, life and most importantly LOVE.
Who knew my 30th birthday would be the last time we would ever speak? You reassured me that we would pick up where we left off as soon as you were finished with nursing school. August 6th, 2014 was going to be our beginning but they way God would have it, it turned out to be our ending.

I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to be angry, I want to be alone. This wasn’t suppose to happen to me. I mean, I told my family and even my closet friends about you.

Now, I’m left feeling exposed, embarrassed and ashamed. Everyone who knows me knows how I feel about LOVE. I thought you knew too. ❤️

10 thoughts on “To Never Be Continued

  1. Brownie, this made me sad 😦 I remember you telling me about this person and the sound in your voice. You were excited, and for good reason. BUT lemme say this… we both know people are in your life for reasons or for seasons. I’m sad yall haven’t spoken in what seems like too long, but your time with\around him served it’s purpose for the time and space he occupied. No need to be ashamed, God’s just making a way for a new season… if anything that’s reason to rejoice. ❤

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    • MoonChild19 says:

      Yeah .. I often think about how things ended but you’re right.. There’s a season for everything.. His place is no longer.. Writing this piece was really hard.. But you have to work through the pain to get to a better place.. Thanks for the encouragement Shan!! ❤️❤️❤️ #Godbeknowing

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