Have you ever had that one person that you couldn’t shake no matter how far the distance was between y’all ? You ever have that person who occupied such a huge part of your life? That person who gets you inside and out? That person you can be your complete self with? No judgements, no secrets and no filters? In this journey I have felt many things, heartache, confusion, sadness and disbelief to name of few. But one feeling that trumps it all is that thing called LOVE. For better or worst I still will choose it first.
There’s this special guy who makes my heart smile. I never knew how much I loved him until now. I know you’re all thinking, “Ok, if he makes your heart smile and makes you feel so good why aren’t you with him?” Well, because life is not that simple. If things always matched up they way we wanted we would never have an opportunity to grow. There would be no room for improvement. People are put in your life as either a blessing or a lesson and this guy is a little of both.
When our paths crossed it was like an immediate connection. The strongest I have ever felt thus far. Sure I am attracted to his physical but this thing we have goes way beyond the surface. It is as if our souls communicated with one another making a pact that would keep us binded forever. Seven years later and this guy gives me the same feeling.
Every meetup, interaction. Every embrace is more special than the last. The way he looks at me and his touch makes me feel like I’m the only woman in the room. His smile brightens up the darkest of rooms. He gives me a feeling that’s indescribable. He’s so in tuned with me. Picks up on my energy good or bad and just leaves me with a smile that has been tattooed on my heart. He doesn’t hold back and keeps it all the way real with me.
And maybe his presence in my life is to serve as a reminder of what it is to feel LOVE. To be reminded of the goodness and the sweetness of LOVE. The way it feels when it covers and caresses you. This LOVE is far from sexual but sensual, soul shaking and breathtaking. Among all these things he is also my friend. Which is what is important when looking for a mate. We have that kind of friendship that has been set on fire which is where real LOVE lies.
I don’t know what the future holds for us but whatever it is, I fully accept and welcome it with open arms. ❤️