March 26th, 2018
“I wanted to protect your feelings I wanted to keep you away from what I was experiencing” he stated.
The more he felt, the more he pulled away.
“I want to make this work, you are who I need.”
I decided he is who I need as well.
So there’s a difference between what you need and what you want. The want fades, the need is more of a permanence.
Our LOVE story began June 6th 2017. The dating app “Black People Meet” led me right to the Black person I needed to meet. His complexion is so rich and chocolate with piercing brown eyes. His heart is as big as the ocean. His love not just for me but for others around him is truly admirable and one of the many reason why I LOVE him.
This is a man who devotes his time to giving haircuts to men in a shelter during the holiday season and hands out money to people in the neighborhood “just because”. He’s not looking for a handout or a shout out. He is the calm to my crazy. When I want to stay mad at him he always finds a way to make me smile or say something that’s hella shady but funny at the same time. He always wants to see me win and he is truly my number one supporter. He has shined the light on me taking better care of my physical and spiritual well-being. With him it’s not about what I look like but what I feed my body and mind which he finds attractive. He never makes me feel less than and shows me the upmost respect in all ways, always.
The disruption of our relationship is what we needed. It allowed for us to assess what is needed to keep our relationship functioning. We were able to be honest and open with each other. We want our relationship to be forever and so we have to take the necessary steps to make that happen. I have realized in this time a relationship takes sooo much more to thrive and survive.
It’s so much easier to walk away but staying, well now, that’s the is the real test.
In this LOVE thing, “You gotta be in it to win it.”
Saying you’re in a relationship is just not enough. It takes understanding, prayer, patience, being reflective and being apologetic just to name a few. Did I say patience? LOL.
We have alot of work to do and we are truly a work in progress. But what relationship isn’t? God has a way of slowing you down and refocusing your speed. He also knows how to remove what you want and give you what you need. ♥️